11我们可以看看这些自定律法的例子。也许你说,你绝不再向丈夫发脾气,或者对他态度不好。这是你的第一条诫命。你的第二条诫命是:你既是个基督徒女士,基督徒妻子,你就需要亲切、甘甜且谦卑。你的第三条诫命是绝不批评别人。第四条是常常爱人,绝不恨人。这些自定的律法就是我们的夏甲。我们能否遵守我们的律法,在神看都没有两样,因为在祂看来,我们就是能守住,也不算数。在已往的年日里,有的姊妹几乎成功的履行她们自制的律法。她们有强的个性,强的意志,强的心愿,整天尽力控制脾气,要表现亲切、甘甜且谦卑。这些姊妹也许在这事上很成功,但她们所产生的不过是以实玛利。这些姊妹很喜欢她们的以实玛利,就一面意义说,她们以此为傲。在弟兄们身上,原则也完全一样。我们虽然得了一个以实玛利,自己看起来不错,但我们深处却感觉到有所缺欠。我们失去了神的同在。不仅如此,这个以实玛利常讥诮属灵的事。(创二一9。)一面我们不喜欢这种讥诮的元素,但另一面,我们觉得以实玛利既是自己产生的,他还不太坏。但由于失去了神的同在,我们就发现自己有了麻烦。正像今天以实玛利的子孙是以色列人的难处,我们所产生的以实玛利也是我们的难处。我们一旦对这一点清楚了,就会祷告说,『主阿,保守我在你的恩典中,保守我在你的应许里。你的应许或者今天就成就,或者多少年后才成就,都不成问题。我只在意你的应许。』这些话说起来很容易,活出来却不容易。在基督徒的生活中是如此,在基督徒的工作中也是如此。新约告诉我们,人得救之后需要传福音并结果子。但在所谓得人的事上,我们用过多少天然的努力和力量!各种的夏甲,就是从埃及得来的,都被用来得人。每一种属世的得人方法都是夏甲。是的,你可以用夏甲得人,但所得来的是甚么样的人?他们不是以撒,乃是以实玛利。按照新约,正确的结果子并传福音乃是凭著里面生命的涌流,凭著神把基督作到我们里面,经过我们,再从我们出去。这意思就是,正确的传福音乃是凭著基督作我们的恩典。
11Let us consider some examples of these self-made laws. Perhaps you say that never again will you lose your temper with your husband or have a negative attitude towards him. This is your first commandment. The second commandment is that, as a Christian lady and a Christian wife, you need to be nice, sweet, and humble. Your third commandment is never to criticize others, and the fourth is to always love people and never to hate them. These self-made laws are our Hagars. Whether we succeed or not in keeping our laws makes no difference in the eyes of God because in His eyes even our successes do not count. In the past years some sisters nearly succeeded in fulfilling their self-made laws. They had a strong character, a strong will, and a strong intention, and all day long they tried their best to control their temper and to be nice, sweet, and humble. Although such sisters might have been successful at this, what they produced was just an Ishmael. These sisters were happy with their Ishmael and, in a sense, they were proud of him. The principle is exactly the same with the brothers. Although we may gain an Ishmael who is good in our eyes, we have the deep sensation that we are missing something. We have lost God’s presence. Moreover, this Ishmael will always mock the spiritual things (21:9). On the one hand, we do not like this mocking element, but, on the other hand, we still feel that since Ishmael was produced by us, he is not that bad. But, having lost God’s presence, we find ourselves in trouble. Just as the descendants of Ishmael are a problem to Israel today, so the Ishmael that we have produced remains a problem to us. Once we are clear about this, we would pray, “Lord, keep me in Your grace. Keep me in the promise. Whether Your promise will be fulfilled today or many years from now does not matter. I only want to care for Your promise.” Although it is easy to say this, it is not easy to live it. What is true in our Christian life is also true in our Christian work. The New Testament tells us that after we are saved we need to preach the gospel and bear fruit. But how much natural effort and strength are exercised in the matter of so-called soul winning! Many kinds of Hagars, all of whom were acquired in Egypt, are used to win souls. Every worldly means of soul-winning is a Hagar. Yes, you may use Hagar to win souls, but what kind of souls will you win? They will not be Isaac but Ishmael. According to the New Testament, the proper fruit-bearing and gospel preaching are by the overflow of the inner life, by God working Christ into, through, and out of us. This means that the proper gospel preaching is by Christ as grace to us.