11今天神的心意是要对付亚伯拉罕,使以撒能来临。祂的心意是要对付我们天然的人,使我们完满的经历祂自己在基督里作到我们里面,作我们的享受。我过婚姻生活将近五十年了,我经历过许多的享受,和许多的苦难。在结婚之前,我真是爱主,常对主说我是如何的爱祂。结婚之后,我到主面前向祂保证说,『主,因著我爱你,我要作个最好的丈夫。』但是我失败了。我就到主面前承认我一切的失败。我经历膏油涂抹之后,快乐了,决心再试著作个最好的丈夫。但是我又失败了。这种上上下下的经历一再重复。后来我甚至讲了一篇信息说,『基督徒的生活有许多黑夜与早晨。绝不要因你的失败灰心。只要再等几小时,你就在早晨了。』许多年来我经历白昼黑夜,黑夜白昼。有一天我得了启示,就说,『傻瓜,谁叫你这样作?基督在这里等著作你的恩典。你必须说,「主,我一无所有,也一无所能。我就是能作甚么,你也绝不认可。来罢,主,你来作,你来为我作个最好的丈夫。这是你的事,不是我的事。你嘱咐我,我把这嘱咐还给你,请你来完成。主,你来作最好的丈夫,我要为此赞美你。」』每当我这样祷告的时候,主就作了最好的工,这就是恩典。恩典就是神把祂自己作到我们里面,作我们的享受。这位神今天不仅仅是父神,也是子神和灵神。不仅如此,灵神也是恩典的灵,(来十29,)这恩典乃是生命的恩典,(彼前三7,)也是『诸般的恩典,』(彼前四10,)『全般的恩典,』(彼前五10,)『彀用的恩典。』(林后十二9。)三一神是这样的恩典,这恩典如今与我们的灵同在。(加六18。)恩典乃是三一神的神圣人位作为那灵,住在我们的灵里。这恩典的灵住在我们灵里,作我们的享受,使我们享受神作我们的生命和一切,甚至作我们的生活。这就是为甚么保罗的每一封书信都结束于:『愿恩典与你们同在。』例如林后十三章十四节说,『愿主耶稣基督的恩,神的爱,圣灵的交通,与你们众人同在。』恩典不是在我们外面,乃是在我们里面。不论我们称之为恩典的灵或生命的恩典,恩典在我们灵里总是活的,神圣的。我们的确有这样神圣的实际,就是三一神自己,在我们灵里作我们的恩典和享受。当祂藉著我们爱别人的时候,这爱就是我们的享受,当祂藉著我们活出祂自己的时候,这个活也是我们的享受。我们昼夜都可以享受祂藉著我们而活。
11God’sin tent i on today is to deal with Abraham that Isaac may come. His intention is to deal with our natural being that we may have the full experience of Himself in Christ wrought into us as our enjoyment. I have been experiencing married life for close to fifty years, experiencing much enjoyment and much suffering. Before I was married, I truly loved the Lord, and I often told Him how much I loved Him. After I was married, I went to the Lord and assured Him, saying, “Lord because I love You, I want to be the best husband.” Eventually, I failed. I went to the Lord and confessed all my failures. After experiencing the anointing, I was happy and I made up my mind to try again to be the best husband. But I failed once more, and this experience of ups and downs was repeated again and again. Later, I even gave a message in which I said, “The Christian life has many nights and mornings. Never be disappointed over your failures. Just wait for several hours and you will be in the morning.” For years and years I went through days and nights, nights and days. One day, I received the revelation and said, “Stupid man, who told you to do so? Christ is here waiting to be your grace. You must say, ‘Lord, I am nothing and I can do nothing. Even if I could do something, it would never be recognized by You. Come, Lord, and do Your job and be the best husband for me. This is Your job, not mine. You charge me, and I return the charge to You and ask You to fulfill it. Lord, You be the best husband and I will praise You for it.’” Whenever I prayed like this, the Lord always did the best job. This is grace. Grace is God working Himself into our being as our enjoyment. The very God today is not only God the Father, but also God the Son and God the Spirit. Moreover, God the Spirit is the Spirit of grace (Heb. 10:29), and this grace is the grace of life (l Pet. 3:7), which is “the varied grace” (1 Pet. 4:10), the “all grace” (1 Pet. 5:10), and the “sufficient grace” (2 Cor. 12:9). The Triune God is such a grace, and this grace is now with our spirit (Gal. 6:18). Grace is the divine Person of the Triune God as the Spirit indwelling our spirit. It is the Spirit of grace indwelling our spirit to be our enjoyment that we may enjoy God as our life and our everything, even as our living. This is why every one of Paul’s Epistles ends with the words, “Grace be with you.” For example, 2 Corinthians 13:14 says, “The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.” Grace is not outside of us; it is in us. Whatever we call it, the Spirit of grace or the grace of life, it is something living and divine in our spirit. We do have such a divine reality, the Triune God Himself, in our spirit as our grace and enjoyment. When He loves others through us, this love is our enjoyment. When He lives Himself out through us, this living is also our enjoyment. Day and night we may enjoy His living through us.