4我们所遭遇的一切都是按著神的安排。不要自以为太渺小,不配这样主宰的安排。神对我们有一个目的-给我们长子名分。因著我们天然的人没有资格得这名分,神必须变化我们。祂不是仅仅藉著创造的手,乃是藉著只有经过一生的遭遇才能完成的漫长过程,来变化我们。我们看过,祂用以撒、利百加和以扫来对付雅各。虽然这三人从未召开会议,商量如何对付雅各,然而他们却为著这目的合作得很好,因为每一件事都在神主宰的手下。神安排以扫先生出来,也使以扫身体强壮,却不精于思考。以扫虽不善于思考,他却能以体力胜过雅各。并且神使雅各有一个只知吃喝享受的父亲。甚至雅各装作以扫到以撒跟前的时候,虽然以撒发觉事情不对,但他仍然只关心他的吃喝。这是他变成瞎眼的原因。当以撒采取中立时,绝顶聪明的利百加却非常偏爱她的宠儿雅各。这三人一同工作,使雅各离开他的慈母和父家,成为一个孤单的流浪者。在古时,从别是巴旅行到拉班所住之地,是一件大事。对雅各来说,离开母亲、父亲、和他从小长大的环境,走上这样漫长的旅途,不是一件小事。雅各成了一个孤单的流浪者,在旅途中必定受了许多苦。你若以正确的领会回顾你的已往,会发现你的经历和雅各完全一样。我们很少人是在美好的家庭中,在慈母的照顾下得救的。我们大多数人是在孤单并且被迫受苦的时候得救的。有的失去了他们的母亲、父亲、未婚妻、妻子、丈夫或儿女,成了孤单的人。原则上,我们许多人得救,是在受苦并孤单的时候。当我们在慈母照顾下的那些年间,属天的梦没有临到我们。第一次属天的梦是甚么时候临到你的?我们都有过这样的梦。我们属灵生命第一次的梦是我们的得救。我们要看见,每一个属灵的异象都是一个梦。你作第一次的梦是在甚么情形下?我们许多人都能作见证,那时我们的处境一点也不偷快。有的正在受苦,有的孤单寂寞,还有的在不愉快的环境中。我们被迫受苦、飘流,成了孤单的人。照著我们的感觉来说,当我们失去了地上的一切,受苦且孤单时,第一次属天的梦就临到了我们。
4Whatever happens to us is according to God’s arrangement. Do not think that you are too small to be worthy of such a sovereign arrangement. God has a purpose for us — to give us the birthright. Since our natural man is not qualified for this, God must transform us. He does not do this simply by His creating hand, but by a long process which can only be carried out through all the circumstances of life. As we have seen, God used Isaac, Rebekah, and Esau to deal with Jacob. Although these three people never held a conference to discuss how to deal with Jacob, they nevertheless worked in a good coordination for this purpose, because everything was under God’ss ove reign hand. God arranged for Esau to be born first. He also arranged for Esau to be physically strong but not to be skillful in exercising his mind. Although he could not exercise his mind very well, he could exercise his physical strength to defeat Jacob. Furthermore, God arranged for Jacob to have a father who only knew to eat and enjoy. Even when Isaac realized that something was wrong when Jacob came to him disguised as Esau, he only cared for his eating. This was the reason that he had become blind. While Isaac was neutral, Rebekah, who was very clever, was partial, very much favoring her beloved son Jacob. These three persons worked together to cause Jacob to leave his loving mother and his father’sho me and to become a lonesome wanderer. In ancient times it was a great thing to travel from Beer- sheba to where Laban lived. It was not a small matter for Jacob to leave his mother, father, and the environment in which he had been raised and to take such a long journey. Having become a lonesome wanderer, he must have suffered a great deal on this journey. If you consider your past with the proper understanding, you will realize that your experience was exactly the same as Jacob’s. Not many of us were saved when we were in a good home under our loving mother’s care. Most of us were saved when we were lonesome and had been forced to suffer. Some had lost their mother, father, fiancée, wife, husband, or children and had become lonesome. In principle, at the time many of us were saved, we were suffering and lonesome. During the years in which we were under the care of our loving mother, the heavenly dream did not come. When did the first dream from heaven come to you? We all have had such a dream. The first dream of our spiritual life was our salvation. As we shall see, every spiritual vision is a dream. In what kind of situation were you when you had your first dream? As many of us can testify, our circumstances were not at all pleasant. Some were suffering, others were lonely, and still others were in an unpleasant environment. We had been forced to suffer, to wander, and to become lonesome. When, according to our consciousness, we had lost everything on earth and we were suffering and were lonely, the first heavenly dream came to us.