12我们很多人,包括我自己,都领悟自己不是那么好。也许就在今天你还说,『哦,我不是这么好,我的思想还不很纯洁。』但把你现在的生活方式和已往的比较一下。你虽然不该自傲,但你应当说,『主,感谢你。我不很满意自己,但我把现在的和已往的比较,我必须感谢赞美你,我和从前很不一样了。』虽然在创世记三十五章雅各还未成熟,但他无疑的已经从已往的他改变了。在下篇信息中我们要看见,雅各事实上怎样有了根本的变化。神再次把他的名字从雅各改为以色列。神告诉他不该再称自己为雅各,要称为以色列。我认识你们很多人已经有十二年,或者更久了。我知道你们很多人今天对自己不满意。当有人问你们近况如何,你们照著习惯说,『我很好。』但照著你们里面的感觉,你们不是很好。也许你刚悔改,向主呼喊过;有人问你近况如何,你说你很好。你虽然对弟兄说『很好,』但你从未对主这么说。我们不该骄傲,也不该失望。把你自己和十二年前的你相比,不是有很大的改变么?谁改变了我们?我们都必须承认,不是我们改变自己;我们是因为在伯特利,在召会生活里而改变的。你如果故意离开召会生活几周,你从前的丑样会回头,狐狸尾巴会露出来,蛇的舌头会运用起来,所有的臭虫也会活跃起来。但你若继续来到召会中,一再接触召会,狐狸尾巴要被除去,蛇舌要被割掉,臭虫也要被毒死。只要你来召会,臭虫统统要灭绝。召会生活是最有效的洁净。最近,在祷告聚会中我经历了很多的洁净。当我坐在聚会中一同祷告的时候,我就被冲洗洁净。我不愿说我被祷告洁净,我乃是被召会洁净。召会是个大浴室,我们在那里都被冲洗洁净。召会若没有这种功用,我怕这不会长久是召会。只要召会是召会,就有这样的功用。常常一到赴召会聚会的时间,里面有个东西就开始洁净我们,告诉我们要洗净自己。在赴会途中,我们常常祷告:『主,我正去聚会,赦免我这件事,洗净我那件事,把那个从我身上挪去。』这就是为著上伯特利而有的洁净。让我们都洁净自己,因为我们必须起来,上伯特利去会见我们的神。我们不能老旧、受玷污的会见祂,我们必须被洁净。这种洁净不是我们的工作,乃是那神圣的手在我们身上的工作。当我们关心祂的伯特利,祂神圣的手就要洁净我们。
12Many of us, including myself, realize that we are not very good. Perhaps even today you have said, “Oh, I am not so good. My thinking is still not very pure.” However, compare your present manner of life with your past. Although you should not be proud of yourself, you should say, “Lord, thank You. I am not very pleased with myself, but as I compare the present with the past, I have to thank and praise You that I am quite different from what I was.” Although in chapter thirty-five Jacob was not yet mature, he had undoubtedly changed from what he once was. In the next message we shall see how radically transformed Jacob actually was. God again changed his name from Jacob to Israel. God told him that he should no longer call himself Jacob but Israel. I have known many of you for twelve years or more. I know that many of you are unhappy with yourselves today. When someone asks you how you are doing, according to custom, you say, “I’m fine.” According to your inner sense, however, you are not so fine. Perhaps you have just repented, crying to the Lord; but when someone asks you how you are, you say that you are fine. Although you may say “fine” to a brother, you never say this to the Lord. We should neither be proud nor disappointed. Compare yourself with what you were twelve years ago. Has there not been a great change? Who changed us? We all must admit that we did not change ourselves; we were changed by being in Bethel, in the church life. If you deliberately stay away from the church life for a few weeks, your former ugliness will return, the fox tail will become visible, the serpent tongue will be exercised, and all the bugs will be active. But if you continue coming to the church, contacting the church again and again, the fox tail will be removed, the serpent tongue will be cut off, and the bugs will be poisoned. As long as you come to the church, the bugs will all be exterminated. The church life is the most effective purification. Recently, I experienced a great deal of purification in the prayer meeting. As I was sitting in the meeting joining in the prayers, I was bathed and purified. I would not say that I was purified by the prayers, but I was purified by the church. The church is a large bathroom where we all are bathed and purified. If the church does not have this function, I am fearful that it will not long remain the church. As long as the church is the church, it will function this way. Often, when it is time to go to the church meeting, something within begins to purify us, telling us to cleanse ourselves. On our way to the meeting, we have frequently prayed, “Lord, I’m going to the meeting. Forgive me of this, cleanse me of that matter, and take that away from me.” This is the purification for going up to Bethel. Let us all purify ourselves, for we must arise, go up to Bethel, and meet our God. We cannot meet Him in an old, polluted way. We must be purified. This purification is not a matter of our working, but of the working of the divine hand upon us. When we take care of His Bethel, His divine hand will purify us.