16当我在痛苦的环境中,主常以基督的十字架指示我。我懂得我需要接受十字架,并活出钉死的生活来。这拯救我脱离苦境,并且我的苦境也得了医治。但同时主也常常向我显明,在我里面有苦味。我看见在我己里面的苦味和环境里的是一样的多。我也看见我的全人─灵、魂、体都是苦的,而且我需要把基督的十字架应用到我全人的每一方面。就属灵上、心理上和肉身上说,我都需要应用基督的十字架。我一再地经历主这样的医治。当我的环境得了医治,我里面也得了医治。在我的环境和我的全人里,苦味都变甜了。你也许认为你的心思、情感或意志不需要医治,你的灵更不需要医治。容我说,我们全人的这些部分都有难处。我们不论男女老幼,在心思、情感和意志里都有毛病,甚至我们的灵也病了。在我得救之前,我的意志没有适当地尽功用。当它该作个决定时,它无法这样作。然而当它不该武断地决定事情时,它却作了那个决定。你岂不是有这样的经历么?再者,我们的情感也不平衡。当我们快乐时,我们会乐得不能自己;当我们哀哭时,我们会哭得没有节制。所以,我们需要许多的医治。现在我们晓得医治的树是丢在我们痛苦的环境中。当我们行在复活的领域中时,我们将一次又一次地被带到玛拉。每次我们经历医治之树丢在我们的环境中时。我们就自然而然地晓得我们里面有些东西需要得著医治。我们也许觉得心思需要得医治,或者发觉意志需要受调整,或是看见情感需要被平衡。在其它的时候,我们也许觉得我们的灵向著别人是苦的,也需要得著医治。主如何在玛拉试验以色列人,今天祂也用我们在苦境中对祂十字架的经历,来试验并察验我们。藉看试验我们,祂给我们看见我们在那里,以及我们到底是甚么。祂暴露我们的动机、存心和意愿。没有甚么比十字架的经历更能试验我们。在痛苦的境遇中,十字架的经历试验我们,并暴露我们全人的每一方面。当我们这样被暴露时,我们应当祷告说:『主,我需要你,我需要更多十字架的经历。我不光需要把这树放在我的环境中,还需要把这树放在我的全人里。我需要把这树应用到我的心思、情感和意志里。我需要把它应用到我的灵里,和我对人的态度上。』藉著这样来应用十字架,主就医治了我们。
16When I have been in bitter circumstances, often the Lord has pointed me to the cross of Christ. I realized that I needed to take the cross and live a crucified life. This saved me from my bitter situation, and my bitter circumstances were healed. However, at the same time the Lord has often shown me that there is bitterness within me. I saw that there was bitterness in my self as well as in my circumstances. I also saw that there is bitterness in my whole being, in my spirit, soul, and body, and that I needed to apply the cross of Christ to every aspect of my being. Spiritually, psychologically, and physically I needed the application of the cross of Christ. Time and time again I have experienced the Lord’she al ing in this way. As my situation was healed, I was healed inwardly. Both in my circumstances and in my being, bitterness was changed into sweetness. You may think that you have no need to be healed in your mind, emotion, or will, much less in your spirit. Allow me to say that we all have problems with these parts of our being. Whether we are old or young, male or female, we are sick in our mind, emotion, and will. We are sick even in our spirit. Before I was saved, my will did not function properly. When it should have made a certain decision, it failed to do so. But when it should not have decided things in a particular way, it proceeded to make that decision. Have you not experienced this? Furthermore, our emotion may not be balanced. When we are joyful, we may rejoice without restriction; when we weep, we may weep without restraint. Therefore, we need a great deal of healing. We realize this every time the healing tree is cast into our bitter circumstances. As we walk in the realm of resurrection, we shall be led to Marah again and again. Every time we experience the healing tree cast into our circumstances, we spontaneously realize that something in our being needs to be healed. We may sense the need for healing in the mind, or realize that our will needs to be adjusted, or see that our emotion needs to be balanced. At other times we may become conscious that our spirit is bitter toward others and needs to be healed. Just as the Lord tested the children of Israel at Marah, He uses our experience of His cross in bitter circumstances to test us and to prove us. By testing us, He shows us where we are and what we are. He exposes our motives, intentions, and desires. Nothing tests us more than the experience of the cross. The experience of the cross in bitter circumstances tests us and exposes every aspect of our being. When we are exposed in this way, we should pray, “Lord, I need You, and I need more experience of the cross. I need to put the tree not only into my circumstances, but also into my very being. I need to apply this tree to my mind, emotion, and will. I need to apply it to my spirit and to my attitude toward others.” Through such an application of the cross, the Lord heals us.