13对我们成为主观的基督才是我们的食物。祂是经过了种种过程的神作为包罗万有的灵内住在我们的灵里。一方面,基督在天上是万有的主;另一方面,祂住在我们灵里是包罗万有赐生命的灵。我们仰望天上的主,也与在我们灵中的那灵交通。赞美主,祂主观地在我们里面!祂对我们如此主观的主要目的是要成为我们的食物,我们生命的供应。要成为我们的食物和生命供应的东西,必须是能进到我们里面,然后被我们所吸收的东西。它必须被接受进来成为我们的组织和纤维的一部分。基督对我们是主观的正是如此。在林前六章十七节保罗告诉我们:『与主联合的,便是与主成为一灵。』当我们吃某一种食物,就使自己与那种食物联合。譬如,我晚餐吃鱼,我便和鱼联合。同样的原则,我们吃基督作我们的真食物,便与祂联合,并且与祂成为一灵。因此,这位基督对我们是主观的,我们与祂联合并与祂成为一灵,祂是我们的食物,我们属天的吗哪。看见这事对我们来说是很重要的。在释放这些出埃及记的信息时,我不满意于仅仅查考圣经或把教训传给圣徒们。我的愿望乃是我们都以真正、实际的方式来经历这些事。在释放本篇信息之前,我一再向主祷告,使我们都能看见我们需要靠著祂并凭祂活著。我们不需要教训、道理和圣经知识。我们需要接受祂作我们的食物,并凭祂活著。吃基督和凭祂活著不该是偶而的操练。反之,它该是我们一天二十四小时的生活方式。在已过几个月间,我向主的认罪,多半都是因著在藉著与祂成为一灵而活出祂这件事上有亏欠。为著这事,我每天都有许多点要向主认罪。清晨我祷告说:『主,赐给我今天这一分的恩典,使我活出你,并实行与你成为一灵。』大约有一个小时之久我能成功地与主活在一个灵里。然后我就觉察到我不再与祂成为一灵的事实。因此,我需要认罪,求主赦免,并归向祂。与主成为一灵就像呼吸:它不是一次发生就永远成就的,它乃是时时刻刻都在进行的。
13The Christ who is our food is the Christ who has become subjective to us. He is the processed God indwelling our spirit as the all-inclusive Spirit. On the one hand, Christ is in heaven as the Lord of all; on the other hand, He is dwelling in our spirit as the all- inclusive life-giving Spirit. We look to the Lord in the heavens, and we fellowship with the Spirit in our spirit. Praise the Lord that He is within us subjectively! The main purpose for His being so subjective to us is that He may be our food, our life supply. Anything which is to be our food and life supply must be something that can enter into us and then be assimilated by us. It must be taken in and become part of the very tissue and fiber of our being. Christ is subjective to us in precisely this way. In 1 Corinthians 6:17 Paul tells us, “He that is joined unto the Lord is one spirit.” Whenever we eat a certain food, we join ourselves to that food. For example, when I eat fish for dinner, I join myself to the fish. In the same principle, when we eat Christ as our real food, we are joined to Him and become one spirit with Him. Hence, the Christ who is subjective to us, to whom we are joined and with whom we are one spirit, is our food, our heavenly manna. It is crucial for us to see this. In giving these messages on the book of Exodus, I am not content merely to carry on a Bible study or to pass on teachings to the saints. My desire is that we shall experience all these matters in a way that is actual and practical. Before giving this message, I prayed to the Lord again and again that we all may see our need to live on Him and by Him. We don’t need teachings, doctrines, and Bible knowledge. We need to take Him as our food and to live by Him. Feeding on Christ and living by Him should not be an occasional practice. Rather, it should be the way we live twenty-four hours a day. During the past months, most of the confession I have made to the Lord has been related to my shortcoming in the matter of living Him by being one spirit with Him. Every day I have had much to confess to the Lord regarding this. Early in the morning I pray, “Lord, grant me today’s port i on of grace that I may live You and practice being one spirit with You.” For about an hour I may be successful in living in one spirit with the Lord. Then I become conscious of the fact that I am no longer one spirit with Him. Thus, I need to confess, ask for the Lord’s forgiveness, and come back to Him. To be one spirit with the Lord is like breathing: it does not happen once for all, but takes place moment by moment.