9我们想要作得好、行得对,情况却恰好相反,我们就学著与保罗同说,『其实,不是我行出来的,乃是住在我里面的罪行出来的。』(罗七。)我们藉著与那是光的神有交通,就发现自己是有罪的:里面有罪性,外面有罪行。我们在里面有罪的『母亲,』外面有罪的行为,就是出于这罪的母亲的『孩子。』加拉太五章十九至二十一节说到肉体的行为。这些行为包括争竞、忌恨、分立、宗派。我们能说我们在召会生活中没有争竞和忌恨么?我们无法说这话。在召会生活中也可能有宗派;一些圣徒可能与某些人结党。这就是在哥林多的情形。『你们各人说,我是属保罗的,我是属亚波罗的,我是属矶法的,我是属基督的。』(林前一12。)我们若在召会生活或家庭生活中,有争竞、忌恨、分立、宗派,就是在肉体中生活行动。我们若说自己与神有交通,却仍有这些肉体的行为,就是在黑暗里行,也就是自欺。我们若在召会生活中有争竞、忌恨、分立、宗派,这就是说,我们的召会生活乃是在黑暗里。照样,我们若说我们是在与神的交通中,却错待我们的丈夫或妻子,就是自欺。我们若真实的以基督为我们的燔祭来满足神,并以基督为我们的素祭作我们每日的食物,就该在光中并行在光中。然后我们在神圣的光中,就会看见自己的失败和短缺。我们若对丈夫或妻子的态度不当,就会看见并承认这是不对的。我们若批评某些弟兄,或袒护一些圣徒,会知道这也是不对的。愿我们都乐意蒙光照,仰望主给我们光!我们若说我们享受主,就必须是在光中。
9We may try to be good and do what is right. However, our situation turns out to be the opposite, and we learn to say with Paul, “Now it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells in me” (Rom. 7:17). Through our fellowship with God, who is light, we discover 17 that we are sinful, that we have sin inwardly and sins outwardly. Inwardly we have a sinful “mother,” and outwardly we have sinful deeds, which are the “children” of this sinful mother. Galatians 5:19-21 speaks of the works of the flesh. These works include strife, jealousy, divisions, and parties. Can we say that we are without strife and jealousy in our church life? We cannot say this. In the church life there may also be parties; that is, the saints may take sides with certain ones. This was the situation in Corinth. “Each of you says, I am of Paul, and I of Apollos, and I of Cephas, and I of Christ” (1 Cor. 1:12). If we have strife, jealousy, divisions, and parties in our church life or family life, we are living and acting in the flesh. If we say that we have fellowship with God and still have these works of the flesh, we are walking in darkness and we are self-deceived. If we have strife, jealousy, divisions, and parties in our church life, this means that our church life is in darkness. Likewise, if we say that we are in fellowship with God but are wrong in our attitude toward our husband or wife, we are self-deceived. If we truly take Christ as our burnt offering to satisfy God and as our meal offering to be our daily food, we should be in the light and walk in the light. Then in the divine light we will see our failures and shortcomings. If we have an improper attitude toward our husband or wife, we will realize this and confess that it is wrong. If we have criticized certain brothers or taken sides with certain saints, we will realize that this also is wrong. Oh, may we all be willing to be enlightened and look to the Lord for light! If we say that we are enjoying the Lord, we must be in the light.