5许多圣徒都愿意从里面被炼净。他们常常祷告说,『主耶稣,进入我里面。我要更多被炼净。主,我不仅恨恶罪和世界,我也恨恶自己、天然的生命、和天然的性情。主阿,我被我的性情所污染。我何等渴望从这玷污得洁净!』我们这样祷告时,自然而然就吃了主耶稣,祂就进入我们里面,作我们滋养的食物和洁净的元素。我们能从良心深处见证,当我们在召会生活中享受主,即使我们无意被炼净,我们也被炼净了。只要我们享受主,我们就从里面被炼净。所以,我们所有的不是洗手,乃是我们这人被洁净。在这些日子里,有人诬告我们洗脑。然而,我们没有实行洗脑,但我们的确经历我们的性情得洗净。不仅我们的心思,连我们的全人,都需要被洁净。主能为我作见证,我常常祷告说,『主,我仍是污秽的。主,我觉得自己仍是太天然,太在自己的性情里。主,我爱你,我要凭你而活。但甚至到今天,主,我还在自己天然的性情里。主阿,因著我的性情污秽,我需要你的洁净。』这就是我们所需要的洁净。这不是外面的洗手,要炫耀我们有多干净。这是来自吃耶稣而有里面的洁净。我们都需要这种从主而来里面的洁净。
5Many of the saints are willing to be purified from within. Often they pray, “Lord Jesus, come in to me. I want to be purified more and more. Lord, I hate not only sin and the world, but also myself, my natural life, and my natural disposition. O Lord, I am so contaminated by my disposition. How I long to be cleansed from this defilement!” As we pray in this way, we spontaneously eat the Lord Jesus, and He comes into us both as the nourishing food and as the cleansing element. Deep within our conscience we can testify that, as we enjoy the Lord in the church life, we are purified, even when we do not have the intention of being purified. As long as we are enjoying the Lord, we are being purified from within. There fore, what we have is not the washing of hands, but the cleansing of our being. In these days we have been falsely accused of brainwashing. However, we do not practice brainwashing, but we do experience the washing of our disposition. Not only our mind, but our entire being, needs to be cleansed. The Lord can testify for me that very often I pray, “Lord, I am still dirty. Lord, I sense that I am still so natural and so much in my disposition. Lord, I love You and I want to live by You. But even today, Lord, I have been in my natural disposition. O Lord, because I am dispositionally dirty, I need Your cleansing.” This is the kind of cleansing we need. This is not a matter of outward washing of hands to make a display of how clean we are. It is a matter of the inward cleansing that comes from eating Jesus. We all need such an inward cleansing from the Lord.