22这些年间,我曾访问一处又一处的召会。每个在新召会里的人都很喜乐,所有的脸都在微笑。但两年之后我访问同样的召会,在那里看见许多不愉快的脸。我私下和一些似乎最不喜乐的人接触,并问他们发生了甚么事,为甚么他们在聚会中闭口无言。他们告诉我彼此得罪的事,以及对长老或对别人不愉快的感觉。每当我听到这事,我就迫切为这召会祷告,说,『主阿,召会这样简直不能往前。』然后我和长老接触,问他们这光景。有时长老说,『李弟兄,别题那人了。虽然他是这里召会生活的一位先锋,但他几乎得罪了每个人。』听见这话,我就问长老是否愿意赦免他。在许多事例中,他们不愿这样作。因此,一方不愿悔改,另一方也不愿赦免。这种情形若继续下去,召会生活就完了。圣徒也许仍来在一起,唱一些诗歌,却因著过犯、论断、以及不愿悔改或赦免,那地就没有国度的生活。鉴察一切的神,晓得隐藏在召会生活表面之下的东西。我们可以聚集如同召会,但我们中间可能没有真正的国度生活。因著不愿悔改并赦免,国度生活就消失。
22During the years, I have visited church after church. Everyone in a new church is happy, and all the faces are smiling. But when I visited the same church two years later, I saw many unhappy faces there. Privately I contacted some of those who seemed the most unhappy and asked what had happened to them and why they were silent in the meetings. They told me of the offenses and the unhappy feelings toward the elders or toward others. Whenever I heard this, I prayed desperately for the church and said, “Lord, the church simply cannot go on like this.” Then I contacted the elders and asked them about the situation. Sometimes the elders said, “Brother Lee, forget about that person. Although he was one of the pioneers of the church life here, he has offended almost everyone.” Upon hearing this, I asked the elders if they would forgive him. In many cases, they were unwilling to do so. Thus, one side was unwilling to repent, and the other side was unwilling to forgive. If such a situation continues, the church life is over. The saints may still come together and sing a few hymns, but because of the offenses, the judgment, and the unwillingness to repent or to forgive, there is no kingdom life in that place. God who sees everything knows what is hidden beneath the surface of the church life. We may meet as a church, but among us there may not actually be the kingdom life. Because of the unwillingness to repent and to forgive, the kingdom life vanishes.