18你若把使徒行传和书信读一遍,就看见召会生活从开始就有这种争权。亚拿尼亚和撒非喇(徒五1~)这对夫妇欺哄神,实际上也是争权。他们想要成为更重要的,使自己能在别人眼中升高。在书信的末了,约翰还题到一个争权的人—丢特腓。(约参9~11。)基督教的历史就是一部争权的历史。这种争斗在我们每一个人里面。你可能不晓得,但牠却隐藏在你里面。至终,召会生活会把我们真实的光景试验出来。只要我们在召会生活中,迟早我们会被试验、并暴露出来。请想想民数记里,以色列人中间的背叛者。有些背叛者是在营边界的人,有些是搀杂的群众,有些是与带头的摩西非常亲近的人。现今在十六章,二百五十个首领背叛了。看到这一切,我们必须相信,每一个以色列人里面都有争权。我们面对这难处,己经六十多年了。长老们知道,他们若在一个地方召会中服事几年,必会得罪一些人。有些人谋求地位与权力,很可能因著长老,他们得不到他们所要的,于是就被触怒了。比如在一九三五年,上海的一个同工起来,要在骚乱的光景中谋求『升迁。』那时倪弟兄不在,召会的行政和工作的带领就落在我身上。那位想利用风暴得好处的弟兄来找我,但我没有给他正面的答覆。至终,这位同工成了倪弟兄的敌人。
18If you read through the Acts and the Epistles, you will see that this struggle for power was there from the beginning of the church life. Ananias and Sapphira (Acts 5:1-4) were a couple who lied to God. Actually, 4 their lying was a struggle for power. They wanted to be more important, to elevate themselves in the eyes of others. At the end of the Epistles, John mentioned one who was struggling for power, Diotrephes (3 John 9-11). The history of Christianity is a history of the struggle for power. This struggle is within each one of us. You may not realize it, but it is hidden inside you. Eventually, the church life will be a test to our real situation. As long as we are in the church life, sooner or later we will be tested and exposed. Consider the rebels among the children of Israel in Numbers. Some rebels were on the border of the camp, some were with the mixed multitude, and some were very close to Moses, the leading one. Now, in chapter sixteen, two hundred fifty leaders rebelled. In view of all this, we must believe that the struggle for power was in every one of the sons of Israel. We have been confronting this problem for over sixty years. The elders know that if they serve in a certain local church for several years, they will surely offend others. Some people are seeking for position and power, and if, because of the elders, they cannot get what they want, they will be offended. For example, in 1935 a co-worker in Shanghai rose up to take advantage of a tumultuous situation to seek for a ‘‘promotion.’’ Brother Nee was away and had left the administration of the church and the leadership of the work to me. The brother who was trying to take advantage of the turmoil came to me, but I did not give him a positive answer. Eventually, this co-worker became an enemy to Brother Nee.