9你以为主要医治你么?不,主要点活你。照著老旧的观念,医治的意思就是改革、改良你。但主从未改良你,或规正你的行为。祂总是点活你。主惟一的用意乃是将祂自己分赐给你,作点活你的生命。为这缘故,主不肯立刻去拉撒路那里治他的病。祂一直等到拉撒路死透了,埋葬了。祂一直等到拉撒路的生命到了绝对的尽头。拉撒路死得那么彻底,以致在坟墓里发臭了。这时候主才来。祂不在这时以前来,因为不愿在医治的原则上来。祂只在复活里生命的原则上来。比方,一位热心宗教的弟兄发觉自己脾气不好。我们可以说,他有坏脾气的病。或是一个孩子,得救之后发觉自己很调皮。他也是一个病人,是害了调皮病。另一个信徒太喜欢开人玩笑,有戏言病。这些病人发现了他们的症状之后,都去将这些病情告诉主。正如马大说拉撒路病了,他们也说他们得了坏脾气的病,行为不良的病,或开玩笑的病。他们要主医治他们,改良他们的脾气,使他们有好脾气,改良他们的行为,使他们有好行为,并且调整他们开玩笑的毛病。想要主调整他那开玩笑毛病的弟兄祷告说,『主阿,保守我的口!』换句话说,这些人病了,并且求主医治他们。但主绝不会来医治你。你越求主医治你的脾气,你的脾气就越不好。主绝不来医治,乃要等、等、等;:直到你死了。祂不会答应你求医治的祷告,乃要等到你的病转为死亡。祂要等到你看见你不只是病了,也是死了。主要等到你告诉祂说,你无可救药了,你对自己完全失望了。你还盼望有所改良么?你果真对自己绝望了么?我怕你们还对自己有些许盼望。好些时候,你就像马大和拉撒路。一面你是患病的拉撒路;另一面,你是报信给主的马大。你将你的病情告诉主,盼望祂会来改良你的情形。但我们都能见证,主绝不会来答应这类的祷告。你越寻求改良,祂就离得越远。有一天,你终于领悟你全然无可指望,你会发现你这器皿除了死水以外一无所有。每件事都满了死亡;没有一件是活的。你就是那六口石缸中的一口,充满了死水。当你知道你完全在死亡里,在你里面除了死水以外一无所有,然后主就会来点活你。当你醒悟,知道这个事实,就是你死了,埋了,甚至发臭了,主就会来点活你。我们的确常常想要更好,想要改良自己!但主要等到你臭了,甚至别人都闻到了,然后祂要照著复活里生命的原则临到你,点活你。
9Do you think that the Lord wants to heal you? The Lord wants to enliven you. According to the old concept, healing means to reform or to improve you. But the Lord never comes to improve you or to regulate your behavior. He always comes to enliven you. The Lord’son ly intention is to impart Himself to you as the enlivening life. For this reason the Lord refused to go to Lazarus immediately to heal him of his sickness. He waited until Lazarus was thoroughly dead and buried. He waited until Lazarus’ human life had come to an absolute end. Lazarus was so completely dead that he was stinking in the tomb. It was at this time that the Lord came. He did not come before this time because He refused to come on the principle of healing. He came only on the principle of life in resurrection. Consider the example of a religious brother who discovers that he has a bad temper. We may say that he is sick with a bad temper. Consider also the case of a little boy who, after he is saved, discovers that he is quite naughty. He also is a sick person; he is sick with his mischievous behavior. Another believer may discover that he jokes too much and that he is sick with his joking. All of these sick people, after discovering their sickness, send the information about their sickness to the Lord. Just like Martha who said that Lazarus was sick, they also say that they are sick of a bad temper, of bad behavior, or of joking. They want the Lord to heal them by improving their temper so that it will be a good temper, by reforming their bad behavior so that it will be a good behavior, and by adjusting their joking. The brother who wants his joking adjusted prays, “O Lord, keep my mouth!” In other words, these people are sick and are asking the Lord to heal them. But the Lord will never come to heal you. The more you pray for the healing of your temper, the worse your temper will be. The Lord will never come to heal, but He waits...waits...waits...until you are dead. He will not answer your prayer for healing, but He will wait until your sickness turns into death. He will wait until you realize that you are not only sick but that you are also dead. The Lord will wait until you tell Him that you are a hopeless case, until you give up all hope for yourself. Do you still hope for some improvement? Are you really disappointed with yourself? I am afraid that each of you still possesses some hope for yourself. Many times you are like both Martha and Lazarus. On one hand, you are the sick Lazarus; on the other hand, you are the Martha informing the Lord. You inform the Lord about your sickness with the hope that He will come to improve your condition. But we all can testify that the Lord will never come to answer this kind of prayer. The more you seek for improvement, the more He stays away. One day you will finally realize that you are an absolutely hopeless case. You will discover that you are a vessel containing nothing but the water of death. Everything is full of death; nothing is living. You are just one of those six waterpots full of death water. When you realize that you are absolutely in death, having nothing except the water of death within you, then the Lord will come to enliven you. When you awake to the fact that you are dead, buried, and even stinking with bad odors, the Lord will then come to enliven you. How often we try to be better and to improve ourselves! But the Lord will just wait until you stink and even spread the bad odors to others. The Lord will wait until others smell your stinking odors. Then He will come to you in the principle of life in resurrection to enliven you.