17以一位姊妹去购物为例。她在店里看见某样卖十二元九角九分的东西。这位姊妹自己盘算:『我每月赚一千二百元。花十二元九角九分买衣服算不得甚么。主并不贫穷,祂是丰富的。上周我为建会所奉献二百五十元。花十二元九角九分有甚么错?当然主是有恩典的。』她越讲理,就越死。她这样想的时候,她的灵就受压。她也许想要安慰自己说,『我不该这么宗教。我所作的没有甚么错。』然而,她越想要扶持她的灵,她的灵就越下沉。她来到聚会中,所能作的就是持守形式,并努力维持属灵姊妹的形像。虽然她呼喊:『阿利路亚!』但那没有生命且是空虚的,是她灵里死了的记号。虽然她灵里发死,她却没有立刻悔改。下一周,她又想那件衣服还有没有得买。最终,她买下带回家了。这时,她的灵不但死了,并且装了棺材,豫备好要埋葬了。她现今来到聚会中,甚至无法喊出形式的阿利路亚。她参加聚会,但她坐在那里像尸体一样。一位长老对另一位说,『那位姊妹发生了甚么事?两个月以前她很活。现在怎么了?她的婚姻有问题么?』要把她装在棺材里,不需要婚姻上的难处这样大的问题。买一件十二元九角九分的衣服,这件小事就足以杀死她的灵。她留在那光景里,直到有一天,因著主的怜悯,她悔改了。你需要察验自己的经历。倘若你思考某件事的时候,你的灵里没有安息,就不要思想。将你的心思从那使你的灵不安的事召回。每当你想要讲理,而你灵里觉得空虚时,就要停下,并将你的心思转回灵里。你需要说,『哦,主耶稣,拯救我。主,拯救我的心思脱离那叫我死的思虑。』你若这样作,立刻就会得著安息、妥贴、满足、甚至灵里的加强。只要你里面有安息、妥贴和满足,就指明你的心思置于正确的方向。你若没有安息、妥贴、满足,却觉得黑暗、空虚、不安,这就指明你的方向是朝著死。在这样的情形里,你就需要将你的心思转回灵里。
17Take the example of a sister going shopping. In the store she sees a certain item which sells for $12.99. The sister reasons with herself, “I make twelve hundred dollars a month. To spend $ 12. 99 for clothes means nothing. The Lord is not poor. He is rich. Last week I gave two hundred and fifty dollars for the church building. What is wrong with spending $12.99? Certainly the Lord is gracious.” The more she reasons, the more she dies. While she is thinking this way, her spirit is suppressed. She may try to comfort herself by saying, “I shouldn’t be so religious. There’s nothing wrong with what I’m doing.” However, the more she tries to sustain her spirit, the lower it descends. When she comes to the meeting all she can do is keep the form and strive to maintain the image of being a spiritual sister. Although she shouts, “Hallelujah,” it is lifeless and empty, a sign that she is dead in her spirit. Even though she suffers death in her spirit, she does not repent immediately. The following week she considers whether the article of clothing is still available. Finally, she purchases it and brings it home. At this point she is not only dead, her spirit has been put into a coffin and is ready for burial. As she comes to a meeting now she cannot even produce a formal hallelujah. She attends the meetings, but she sits there like a corpse. One of the elders says to another, “What happened to that sister? Two months ago she was so living. What is the matter now? Does she have a problem with her marriage?” It does not take a major problem such as a difficulty in marriage to put her into a box. The small matter of purchasing an article of clothing for $12.99 killed her spirit. She remains in that condition until one day, by the Lord’s mercy, she repents. You need to examine your own experience. If when you think about a certain matter you have no rest in your spirit, stop your thinking. Call back your mind from the thing which gives your spirit unrest. Whenever you try to reason and you feel empty in your spirit, stop and turn your mind back to the spirit. You need to say, “O Lord Jesus, rescue me. Lord, deliver my mind from that consideration which gives me death.” If you do this, immediately you will have rest, comfort, satisfaction, and even strengthening in your spirit. As long as you have rest, comfort, and satisfaction within, it is an indication that your mind is set in the right direction. If you have no rest, comfort, or satisfaction, but rather feel dark, empty, and restless, it is an indication that your direction is toward death. In such a case you need to turn your mind back to the spirit.