11所有寻求主的人都被肉体困扰。肉体使我们众人有许多失败。但藉著我们的失败,主的一些东西就作到我们这人里面。我能见证,一年过一年,神在我里面一直增加,主要是藉著我的失败。我不敢说,我们的失败越多,我们的光景越好。然而,我能说,神使用我们的失败来帮助我们在主里长大;但只有在我们爱主并寻求祂时才会如此。我们若寻求主,无论我们经历成功或失败,我们都可以有平安。我们都必须认真寻求作王胜过罪、死和撒但。然而,我们也许竭力要在生命中作王胜过这三个仇敌,但我们所经历的却是失败多于成功。不要失望。只要你爱主并寻求祂,祂甚至会使用你的失败,将祂自己更多作到你里面。我们许多人能见证,我们藉著失败比藉著成功更多得著主。我们的失败逼我们到主面前,并且使我们迫切进入灵里。至终,藉著这样迫切转向灵,我们就会完全被主浸透。没有罪恶、丑陋的肉体所给的帮助,我们就不会那么迫切要得著主,或让祂作到我们里面。我读过好些关于圣别、属灵、和得胜生活的书。我试过这些书里所引荐的一切作法,这些作法没有一种是全然成功的。虽然我们知道自己必须圣别、属灵并得胜,但我们达不到,并且落在受苦之中。我们的目标是圣别、属灵或得胜;但神的目标是要将祂自己作到我们里面。只要神有机会将祂自己作到我们这人里面,祂就不太在意我们的情形是顶好或是可怜。通常在我们的光景可怜时,祂更有机会在我们里面作祂所渴望作的。我们的情形和光景顶好时,我们也许就向主内里的工作关闭了。我不是鼓励你要在可怜的情形或在属灵低落的景况里。但我能向你保证,当你在这样的光景或景况里,神能更多将祂自己作到你里面,过于你光景好的时候。这是因为我们在困难的情形里,就更向主敞开,更愿意转向祂,并且更愿意让祂将自己作到我们里面。
11All seekers of the Lord are troubled by the flesh. It causes all of us to have many failures. But through our failures something of the Lord is wrought into our being. I can testify that year after year God has been increasing in me, mainly through my failures. I dare not say that the more failures we have, the better off we shall be. However, I can say that God uses our failures to help us grow in the Lord. But this is only true if we love the Lord and seek Him. If we seek the Lord, we may be at peace, whether we experience success or failure. We all must earnestly seek to reign over sin, death, and Satan. However, although we may try diligently to reign in life over these three enemies, we shall experience more failure than success. Do not be disappointed. As long as you love the Lord and seek Him, He will use even your failures to work more of Himself into you. Many of us can testify that we have gained more of the Lord through our failures than through our successes. Our failures press us to the Lord and make us desperate to get into the spirit. Eventually, by turning to the spirit in such a desperate way, we shall be fully saturated with the Lord. Without the help rendered by the sinful, ugly flesh, we would not be as desperate to gain the Lord or to have Him wrought into us. I have read a number of book son holiness, spirituality, and the victorious life. I have tried all the ways recommended in these books. None of these ways was altogether successful. Although we know that we must be holy, spiritual, and victorious, we fall short and come into suffering. Our goal is holiness or spirituality or victory. But God’s goal is to work Himself into us. As long as God has the opportunity to work Himself into our being, He does not care very much whether our situation is excellent or poor. Often He has a greater opportunity to do what He desires in us when our condition is pitiful. When our situation and condition are excellent, we may be closed to the Lord’sin ward working. I do not encourage you to be in a poor situation or to be in a low state spiritually. But I can assure you that when you are in such a condition or state, God will be able to work more of Himself into you than when your condition is good. The reason for this is that when we are in a difficult situation, we are more open to the Lord, more willing to turn to Him, and more willing to allow Him to work Himself into us.