6至于我们的意志又如何?我们若针对我们的意志到主面前,主会彻底而详细的暴露我们的意志。我们好像在神圣的显微镜底下接受察验,因为我们意志里的病菌,要一一被带到光中。我们特别会看见,自己是何等的背叛,我们不知道甚么是服从主。我们需要一一承认我们意志里背叛的病菌。主也许给你看见,几年前你在某一件事上作错了。也许祂又叫你看见,你错待了某一位弟兄或姊妹。每一次你都需要认罪。你应当因著在祂的光中被祂暴露而感谢祂。我们若承认主在我们意志里所暴露的一切,就能清除我们的意志这个动脉的阻塞。关于情感我们也需要清除情感这个动脉的阻塞。当我们看见,我们情感的难处多么严重时,我们也许会极其难过。我们会感到失望,对我们的情感这样的光景觉得十分羞惭。我们会看见,许多时候我们恨我们所该爱的,爱我们所该恨的。当我们进到圣所的光中,就会看见我们全人最丑陋的一面就是我们的情感,因为我们运用情感不得当。我们的喜乐和忧伤可能全是天然的。当主暴露我们时,我们会对自己表达喜乐和忧伤的方式感到羞愧,因为那样的表现常是天然的、属肉体的、甚至是属肉的。难怪我们心理的心不能正确的尽功用。
6What, then, about our will? If we go to the Lord concerning our will, He will expose it in a thorough and detailed way. It may seem as if we are being examined under a divine microscope, for one by one there will be brought to light all the germs in our will. In particular, we shall realize that we are very rebellious, that we do not know what it means to be submissive to the Lord. One by one, we need to confess the germs of rebellion in our will. The Lord may show you that, a few years ago, you were wrong in a particular matter. Then He may go on to show you how you were wrong with a certain brother or a certain sister. Each time you will need to confess. You should thank the Lord that you are under His light, under His exposure. By confessing all that the Lord exposes in our will, we unclog the artery of our will. Concerning the Emotion The artery of the emotion also needs to be unclogged. When we realize how serious is the problem we have with our emotion, we may be deeply sorrowful. We may despair and feel utterly ashamed of the condition of our emotion. We shall realize that in many cases we hate what we should love, and love what we should hate. When we come into the light of the sanctuary, we shall see that the most ugly aspect of our being is our emotion, for we do not use it properly. Both our joyfulness and our sorrow may be altogether natural. As the Lord exposes us, we may feel ashamed of the way we have expressed joy and sorrow, for that expression often was natural, fleshly, even fleshy. No wonder our psychological heart does not function normally.