6你也许不解,这些『臭虫』究竟是甚么。按道理的说法,这些『臭虫』就是我们的心思、情感和意志。但在实行上,最需要杀死的『臭虫』乃是我们的意见,我们需要加强的光,看见我们都满了意见。当你听信息的时候,与圣徒交通的时候。或者读圣经的时候,常把持著许多意见和观念。几乎每个圣徒都坚持一些意见和观念。这里我的点乃是说;我们若要作妇人里面较刚强的部分,藉著祷告与仇敌争战,就必须丢弃一切的意见而取用神的话。换句话说,藉著祷读取用神话语的路,就是杀死我们的意篇里曾指出,遵守主的话,意思就是接受主,并杀死我们一切的意见。若不是因著主的怜悯,我们都会用我们的意见阻挠主的话,我们何等需要祷读这杀死的话,祷读那能杀死我们意见和观念的话!在我召会生活的经历里,许多时候我用我的意见阻挠了主。在主的恢复里,这意见是每个人的难处。我并不是说,我们该像木头一样,没有感觉;当你读经的时候,你是个活人,思想、感觉和判断都是强的,这时你该求主杀死你的意见。这样祷告的圣徒不多。但我们必须说,『主,我要祷请你的话;主,杀死我的意见。』那阻挠你,使你不能和别人同被建造的,主要的还不是你的软弱,甚至也不是你的属世,乃是你的意见。我们都有心爱主,也渴望被建造在召会中,然而,结果却往往没有照著我们的愿望。有些人已经过了十多年的召会生活,仍然不在真实的建造里;他们虽然和建造非常接近,却是与建造分离的。不管他们与建造靠得多近,他们实际上没有被建造在其中。他们的意见从中作梗,使他们不能和别人同被建造。因此,我们都必须祷告说,『主,我要在我里面的人里得著加强;我要得著加力,认识基督的丰富;我也要穿上神全副的军装,作刚强的人。但是难处在于我还没有让你的话来杀死我的意见。』
6You may wonder what these “bugs” are. Speaking in terms of doctrine, you may say that these “bugs” are your mind, emotion, and will. But to be practical, the “bugs” that most need to be killed are our opinions. We need an intensified enlightenment to see that we are filled with opinions. When you listen to a message, fellowship with the saints, or read the Bible, you cling to many opinions and concepts. Nearly every saint holds on to some opinion or concept. My point here is this: If we would be the stronger part in the woman, fighting against the enemy by praying, we must take the word of God by renouncing every opinion. In other words, the way to take the word of God by pray- reading is to have our opinions slain. In message out that to keep the word of the Lord means to take in the Lord and to have all our opinions killed. If it were not for the Lord’s mercy, we would all frustrate the word of the Lord by our opinions. How we need to pray-read the killing word, the word that kills our opinions and concepts! In my experience in the church life, many times I have frustrated the Lord by my opinions. The problem with everyone in the Lord’s recovery is this matter of opinions. I am not saying that we should be without feeling, like a wooden log. When you come to the Word, as a living person who is strong in thought, feeling, and judgment, you must ask the Lord to slay your opinions. Not many saints have prayed in this way. But we must say, “Lord, I am about to pray - read Your word. Lord, kill my opinions.” What has frustrated you from being built up with others is not mainly your weakness or even your worldliness — it is your opinions. We all have a heart to love the Lord and a desire to be built up into the church. Often, however, the outcome has not been according to our desire. Some have been in the church life for more than ten years, but they are still not a part of the actual building. Although they are very close to the building, they are detached from it. No matter how close they are to the building, they are not actually built into it. Their opinions have hindered them from being built up with others. Thus, we all must pray, “Lord, I want to be strengthened in my inner man; I want to be empowered to realize the riches of Christ; and I want to be strong by putting on the whole armor of God. But my problem is that I haven’ty et allowed Your word to kill my opinions.”