9我年轻的时候,不明白为甚么保罗似乎很难达到这标竿。我以为是他所遭遇的逼迫所致。依我看,似乎是从别人来的反对,拦阻他奔跑基督徒的赛程。多年以后,藉著经历我才开始看见,叫我胜过逼迫,比叫我不照著天然的生命,而在杰出的复活里爱妻子更为容易。我在基督里已经五十多年了,这些年间我一直是个热心的基督徒。在基督徒的赛程中,我遭遇过许多拦阻;我知道最大的拦阻,乃是天然的生命及其想法和习惯。我们向著标竿奔跑赛程的时候,天然的生命常常拦阻我们。你曾否问过自己,你每日的谈话中,有多少是天然的,有多少是在杰出的复活里的?虽然你不说邪恶、毁谤的话,但你的谈话也许是天然的。你可能说了许多积极的话,但你的说话可能还是在天然里,而不是在复活里。改良我们的品行、行为、伦理、或道德并不难,但要在复活里生活,却极其困难。天然的生命有一个特点,就是罣虑。你完全没有罣虑,没有担忧么?最近我的健康有点问题,罣虑就来了。我就宣告主在腓立比四章六至七节的话:『应当一无罣虑,只要凡事藉著祷告、祈求,带著感谢,将你们所要的告诉神;神那超越人所能理解的平安,必在基督耶稣里,保卫你们的心怀意念。』我宣告我是站在这个应许之上,然而,宣告之后,罣虑立刻又来了。我想要脱离罣虑,但是罣虑始终不放我过去。你知道我为甚么会罣虑么?因为我尚未完全在复活里。在杰出的复活里,是没有罣虑的。罣虑是属旧造的,不能进入复活的范围里,不能进入新造的领域里。
9When I was young I wondered why it seemed difficult for Paul to reach the goal. I thought that the persecutions he suffered made this difficult. It seemed to me opposition from others hindered him in running the Christian race. Years later, through experience I came to see that it is easier for me to overcome persecutions than to love my wife in the out-resurrection and not according to the natural life. I have been in Christ for more than fifty years. During all this time I have been a zealous Christian. Having encountered many hindrances in the Christian race, I have learned that the greatest hindrance is the natural life with its thoughts and habits. The natural life frustrates in running the race toward the goal. Have you ever asked yourself how much of your daily conversation is natural and how much is in the out - resurrection? Although you may not speak in an evil, slanderous way, your talk may be natural. You may speak many positive things, but your words may be spoken in a natural way, not in resurrection. It is easy to improve our character, behavior, ethics, or morality, but it is extremely difficult to live in resurrection. One characteristic of the natural life is anxiety. Are you free from anxiety and worry? Recently I had a problem with my health, and I was anxious about it. I claimed the Lord’sword in Philippians 4:6 and 7: “In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus.” However, immediately after declaring that I stood on this promise, I was anxious again. I wanted to be free from anxiety, but it refused to let me go. Do you know why I was anxious? I was anxious because I was not fully in resurrection. There is no anxiety in the out- resurrection. Anxiety belongs to the old creation, and it cannot enter into the realm of resurrection, into the sphere of the new creation.